November... Um... 18th? Yeah.

I MADE A BLANKET.

... Yeah, that's all I got for you guys right now. I'm exhausted. So lookie the peekshurr! :3

What's the date? The 14th? I think so.

Danny goes back to his dad's today. :(

I DON'T WANNA BRING HIM BACK! I WANT TO KEEP HIM WITH ME FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER!

Life sucks. :(

We're taking pictures today. Danny loves having his picture taken. He smiles and poses, so cute!

What? You want proof pics?

Hell yeah I'll show my perfect little man off! :D

Don't even try to tell me he's not the cutest munchkin ever, because he is. :3 I love his flannel shirts, he looks so handsome in button ups! And he got a haircut, too!

He's watching Sesame Street, and kissing the TV when he sees Big Bird. WHY GOD? I CAN ONLY HANDLE SO MUCH CUTE! THIS IS TOO MUCH!!! <3<3<3

I gotta go before my brain 'splodes from too much cuteness! There's just too much! xD

November 12th

I forget how many days in we are. My give a fuck is just not there, yo.

So let's do some catching up.

First, I have a temporary place. Danny can't stay with me, because it's in a house with 5 boys.

Danny stays at his dad's. on my days off from work, we go up to my little brother's house.

We're up here now. Been here since Sunday night. ^_^ I'm so happy.

Mikey's roommate, Aaron, is so sweet and nice. He's been helping me with Danny. ... And he likes me too. :3

Really want to date him. And other things. But he wants to talk to Mikey about it first. He steals kisses whenever he can, though. :)

And then there's my friend from England. I adore him immensely. He's such a cutie, and very kind and thoughtful. He makes me feel like I'm 16 again sometimes. I love it.

Life is complicated.

Oh, but I love the boys at home! Not in the same way as Aaron and my friend, more like brothers. They're just big 10 year olds, I swear! It's awesome. <3

And my job! I love my job too!

Um... I think that's it right now? Yes? Yes. I'm gonna check on Danny, then put pj's on and get stoned. :) Sounds like a plan!

Day... Fuck if I know, it's 3AM...

-_-

Can't sleep...

Fuuuuuuck.,..

Danny woke up at 2, hasn't stopped screaming since...

Will talk more after some shut-eye.

(I keep forgetting about this blog. Life has a funny way of interrupting blog posts.)

Day Nine

Holy damn. I'm sorry guys, life got in the way of posting.

Thursday I took PTO to spend more time with Danny. It was fantastic!! We spent the whole day together, just playing and watching Batman, and Spiderman, and he got all excited watching me play Diablo 3, cheering me on while my monk destroyed the shit out of everything! :D

So awesome.

Then Friday we went and filled out an app for an apartment, landlady was so nice, she played with him while I was filling out the paperwork. It's a nice 2br+1ba $665/mo in St. Paul Park. Very nice little town nestled between Woodbury, Inver Grove Heights and the river. Quaint describes it well. Then yesterday we filled out another app for a 2br+1ba $725/mo right down the road from his Thursday babysitter, upper level duplex just vacated so it still hasn't been cleaned. I offered to clean it up for a waive of fees; needs new carpet and paint, but I can do that. Dad knows how to lay carpet, so he could help me do it. Very nice leasing agent lady, she was laughing at Mar's antics. He managed to get downstairs, and the woman renting that level caught him and played with him. Older woman, very sweet. Just as we were leaving, she says "I hope you two get in, everyone else has given me a bad vibe but you two are so nice! I'll be sure to put in a good word with the owner!" ^_^

Danny's been so good all weekend. Bit of a fight to get him to eat at lunch and dinner, but otherwise he's been good with naps and going straight to bed at night. :) He's getting too big too fast!

He has a weird habit of headbutting things when he's upset, though. Mikey suggested picking him up and making him stand while he throws fits like that, so he doesn't hurt himself. I'm not so sure, I'd rather he learned that headbutting hurts and not to do it; though, he keeps doing it, even after saying "Ow..." I dunno.

His dad wants him over at 9am, so I need to sleep. :( I don't want to bring him over so early, Sundays are my Mondays and I feel like I don't get enough time with him as it is. It hurts to be away from him for extended periods of time. But this is the arrangement me and his dad worked out; Thursday morning to Sunday afternoon I have him, Sunday evening to Thursday's breakfast is his time. He has a longer weekend than I do, since he's on overnights and barely sleeps (insomnia). It works, but...

I miss my baby. :'(

We're having a shift bid soon, and this time it's based on our performance instead of seniority, so I have a super good chance of getting the shift I want. 9-5, heck yeah. Get Danny in a real daycare again, with kids his age to play with, it'll be so good for him!

Just have to endure a little longer...

I hope...

LOOK HOW BIG HE'S GETTING!!! <3

^_^ I love my Danny Boy! Thiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis much!

Okay, time for sleep. Night kids.

Day Four pt. 2

Don't have much time, lunch is almost over. Got nothing done today. Couldn't sleep til 5:30am. Gonna try and do shit tomorrow. Had to wear dirty clothes today. Very annoying, but I don't sweat so they don't smell. Seriously, it's a medical condition I inherited from my mother. Will post when I get home.

Day Four pt. 1

Technically, anyway. I don't consider it the next day until I've slept. So in my mind, it's still Sunday.

Fuck you, reality!

Ugh.

I have so much to do tomorrow. I have a couple of other housing places to call, a few county/state agencies, and two women's shelters. Got a ton of laundry (on my last pair of clean skivvies and opted out of pants to save on clean clothes), and gonna talk to the guys here about the living arrangement. I'm thinking if I buy a futon, and sleep on that, this could be a permanent place. Danny and I can sleep on the futon at night, and it'll fold up into a couch when he wakes up. That'd be perfect.

We'll see.

The coworker I'd mentioned that I think likes me, he and his roomies talked about renting a room to me. But they're all heavy drinkers, and they didn't feel comfortable having a toddler around alcohol. I hear it was a very serious conversation, though. They really wanted to do it. I told them all I appreciated it, but I agreed with the final consensus.

My biggest issue is my rental history. My credit's shot, too, but it's the history that's getting me turned away. I owe a previous landlord money.

Fuckers claim I smeared food all over my walls and left mold in my sinks and tub.

Not paying them $400. Fuck them.

If I could find a roommate, it'd be easier. If any of you took the time to read my other blog, Curiouser and Curiouser, you'd know why I have a hard time with the idea of living with another person, other than family.

I do not want a repeat of that shit.

My brother Mikey and his roommate have been talking, though. My dad has a lot of heart issues, and needs to move down to the cities. Mikey wants to live with him, so he's not alone. His roommate doesn't necessarily want to; he likes their trailer. So I said I'd take over Mikey's half, if it came down to it. We've known him long enough to call him family. That's perfectly fine by me.

But it's all the way up in Shoreview... I work in Mendota Heights...

Google Map that shit. :/

So I've got some thinking to do. In the interim, I need sleep. Not gonna get any, I'll probably stay up and watch PewDiePie or something on Netflix, but I can wish!